I don't understand

skirt:  tjmaxx   tank: shadeclothing  maternity   vest: loft    necklace: groopdealz 

I don't understand how I'm supposed to sleep comfortably in my bed after finding a tick crawling on me the other night while in bed, and then another one on our wall the next day.   And I don't understand why I felt the need to take a picture of it and share it with you.  I'm sorry.  It really it too disgusting.  

I don't understand why my belly has started growing sideways instead of straight out.  Isn't that the wrong way? I don't understand why last week I lost more than a handful of followers and how to not let that bother me a little.I don't understand how I am supposed to have energy after school when it is in the upper 80's outside and I'm in an non air conditioned classroom with 21 sweaty, restless kids who are ready for summer, with a pregnant belly that makes me even more sweaty and tired.  I don't understand why all shows end in May.  I would much prefer 90210, Modern Family and Parks and Recreation to continue throughout the summer. Speaking of tv shows, I don't understand why Netflix sucks me in with the first two seasons of shows like Sister Wives and Hart of Dixie, but doesn't have the rest of the seasons available.  I don't understand why my sister has to go back to Vermont after visiting this weekend.  Wishing she could stay!and I don't understand why I forgot to pick a winner for the Target giftcard giveaway.  Congratulations to Deborah Rose!  Email me at katiejvale@yahoo.com and Lindsay and I will get you your prize.  

Blessings and Curses

jacket: old navy (similar)   shirt: tjmaxx (similar)  tee: target  

Do you ever read something insightful, hear good advice or encouragement and kind of wish you didn't hear it because you know it applies directly to you? 

Because sometimes it is really hard to believe and live out that advice. 

That is how I've been feeling after I read the book Cold Tangerines by Shauna Niequiest. 

I had read this book awhile ago and wanted to read it again, as I felt like it would be applicable during this stage in my life.  And I was right. 

In a chapter about blessings and curses, Shauna writes about a friend's hardships and how it seemed like God was being cruel that year, but how she knew that he was not. 

"What I know now is that his (God's) kindness burns through the deepest betrayals and invites life from death every chance we let him.  There are things the explode into our lives and we call them curses, and then one day, a year later or ten years later, we realize that they are actually something else.  They are the most precious kinds of blessings." 

I find myself many mornings having a mini pity party for myself as I have started a new round of fertility treatments. 

My mornings involve lots of different medicines and my breaks at school involve insurance phone calls and dr. appointments, my blog rolls and facebook feeds are filled with pregnancy updates and announcements and my thoughts are constantly filled with anxiousness and uncertainty for the future. 

There are many days I look at this current place I'm in and feel as though it isn't fair.  

And it is easier to be upset and annoyed at this place where God has me.  

But I have a choice daily. 

". . . but more often than not, there is something just past the heartbreak, just past the curse, just past the despair and that thing is beautiful.  You don't want it to be beautiful, at first. You want to stay in the pain and the blackness because it feels familiar, and because you're not done feeling victimized and smashed up.  But one day you'll wake up surprised and humbled, staring at something you thought for sure was a curse and has revealed itself to be a blessing - a beautiful, delicate, blessing." 

While I can see some blessings that have come from this trial, I have yet to see this season of our life as beautiful, but I am waiting.  I know some day I will get there and that gives me hope. 

While I fail all the time, I am working on this daily. 

 Daily choosing to accept this place where God has me, and daily searching for the blessings in all this.  

$1,000

skirt: marshalls (similar)  top: jcpenny  necklace: ebay

Don't you wish I was talking about a $1,000 giveaway?
Me too.

Instead I'm asking you this:
Want to know a fun way to spend $1,000?

Don't buy a refrigerator.

Because it is not fun. 

What I would have rather spent my money on:

Buying many many more statement necklaces.

A long weekend away in Lake Geneva.

A shopping spree, purchasing these items and many more.

Many sushi dinners:


Plane tickets to visit my favorite little boy and girl.

Sometimes being an adult and owning a house is a bummer.

On a more exciting note I'm doing a giveaway on Much Love Illy's blog.  Check it out!

Risk Taker

shirt: target ($3 pajamas section)  skirt: tjmaxx (similar)  headband: made myself  bracelets: target

The words risk taker, spontaneous and adventurous are words that are far from my personality vocabulary.  

I desire routine, consistency and predictability. 

I prefer things to stay the same, so much that even changing my hair color drastically is a big step.
 And I was extremely proud of myself for dying my hair dark. 

After this post, someone left me a comment that made me incredibly happy,
telling me that I had the hippie look going on. 

Dream. Come. True.

I've always wanted to rock a headband like a hippie but am too much of a wuss to try something out of my comfort zone.  Well here it is. 

Gosh.  Who knows what's next?

Maybe I'll even attempt pattern mixing. 

And apparently I think this is what hippies do.

Peace Out Friends!

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Outfit Observations

 shirt: tjmaxx  shirt: gap  sandals: target  bracelet: francesca's

1. Let's acknowledge the obvious first. 

You may be wondering where my eyes are.  You have to look hard. 

Hey, it's been a rough week. 

2. If you want to feel like you are wearing pajamas all day wear a cotton maxi skirt and cotton tee.

3. If someone knows how to tie their shirt like this in less than 5 minutes please tell me.

It takes me way too long, which probably means I need longer shirts.

4. I think I wear these sandals at least every other day. 

5.  I clearly have stopped blow drying my hair.  

Case in point here and here this week. 

It is just too darn hot. 

6. I recently bought a strapless bra that has detachable straps, and have been wearing it as a non strapless bra. But today one strap unhooked at least 5 times, which is incredibly inconvenient. 

(I know you can't see this one, but trust me.  It may have been mid detachment in this picture.)

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