Giving In

 tee: shade clothing maternity     pants: walmart     scarf: gap

First thing:  I don't want this post to sound like I answered the interview question: "What is your weakness?" with "I just don't know when to stop working," or "I love the kids too much and take my work home with me."  Because I truly do this to a fault and will hopefully communicate what I am trying to work on. 
I have a very hard time giving into things.  I've always been really stubborn and disciplined and I think that can be a good thing and has.  A good thing when training for a marathon or working really hard at my job.  A good thing with exercising daily and working on the relationships around me. 
But a really poor thing when I try to control everything.  
This pregnancy has challenged me with a whole new level of giving in and it's starting to give me anxiety because I'm not doing it.  Even with little things like giving myself a break with not stressing out about what I eat, how often I'm not exercising and how much weight I'm gaining.  I need to give in to what my body needs to do, and do so with an attitude that this is what I need to do and to be content with it.  

But on a greater note I'm feeling less in control of the future than I ever have.  I don't know what it will look like to be a mom.  I don't have the answers of how Chris and I are going to adapt well and quickly to parenthood.  I don't know the exact time I'm going to go back to work, or how insurance is going to work out.  I can't control how much money Chris makes in his business.  
I'm failing quite miserably at giving in to a future that I can not control.  You may think that I would have learned this already, as I've written multiple posts about giving God control.  But here I am today filled with anxiety about what our future will look like.  My stubbornness and desire for everything to be in order are making me fearful and emotional.  
So I am working on giving in to my body, my relationship with Chris, our finances and our future changing.  Handing over my stubbornness and control and having confidence that God will take care of it.  

Recent Favorites

 
top: old navy   jeggings: walmart   shoes: rue 21  necklace: groopdealz

These floral flats I got for $5 for Rue 21 at the outlet mall on our trip.  

These headbands that I bought from this shop.  Can't wait for baby girl to wear them.  

The ladies in my small group who threw me an adorable shower on Sunday.  It is overwhelming and wonderful how much people love us and this baby. 
Stephanie's shop Ooh Baby Infinity.  She is beyond talented and has the cutest things in her shop.  I don't know how I would pick one favorite.  I know I'd love to own this elephant diaper bag, this nautical beach tote or this pink and white polka dot scarf.   I'd bet you'd have a hard time choosing a favorite too!
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Sara from The Hinton Hookup.  I love Sara and her sweet blog about life with her husband, and her recent move to New Jersey.  We share a love for old navy, a passion for running, and our love for sharing our life happenings on our blogs.  I've enjoyed reading Sara's blog since I started mine!
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Litva's Jewlery by Sandra.  She makes beautiful jewelry from feathered earrings to leather wrap bracelets. Her jewelry would make a great Mother's Day gift, like these ruby red earrings.  Plus she has free shipping on all her items!
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