and there were tears

My sister sent me this video back in March and I watched it and got all teary eyed thinking about becoming a mom.  I saved it and am so glad I did, although this time it produced not just teary eyes but a full streams of tears.  
Lately I have been overcome with so many emotions as our due date gets closer.  I am beyond excited to meet our baby girl and can't even wait to hold her and start our life as a family of three.  
But I am also scared.  Scared of labor, of her being born healthy.  Scared of not knowing what we are doing and the responsibility of taking care of this tiny baby.  Scared that I already love her so much and I haven't even met her.  It scares me to think of how much more I'll love her when she's here, which makes me scared to think of anything ever happening to her. 
This video was such a great reminder that I am far from alone.  A reminder to just breathe and take it day by day.  A reminder that it's okay to be scared and to not know what to expect.   I also remind myself that God loves our baby girl more than I do and is always in control.  


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Third

 

dress: H&M    tee: old navy    flats: jcpenney

I feel a little like a pioneer in this dress because of it's length.  I don't know if I've ever had the problem of a maxi dress being too short but I'm pretty sure it shrunk and then add my belly to shorten it.  But it's so comfortable I am still going to wear it.

I am so happy to be in the third trimester.  It felt like it was beyond slow at the beginning and now time seems to be moving quickly.  There is this huge relief that I feel now that we've reached this point.  Although I have no plans on early labor or any reason to think something will happen, it's comforting to know that if our baby girl decided to come anytime soon, she'd be able to make it.  

Hope you have a great start to the week!

Tender Moments

scarf: made my me (tutorial here)    top: shade clothing  skirt: target maternity  leggings: jcpenney

This whole pregnancy journey so far has been quite an emotional one.  From our long road to get here to our scary complications at the start.  There have been many moments where I've been overcome with emotions from fear to excitement.  Thankfully the majority of the overwhelming emotions lately have been due too complete tenderness and joy at the thought of bringing our daughter into our lives. 

Feeling her first movements, finding out she was a girl, Chris feeling her kick for the first time, hanging up clothes in her closet, registering for baby stuff . . . There have been so many surreal moments the last month or so that have filled my heart with excitement and joy and have brought me to tears.  

Of course I still have fears and have a handful of things that I am not enjoying, like not sleeping, being extra emotional, gaining weight and feeling out of control of changes that are happening.  

BUT I still wake up daily, feel my growing belly and praise God for this miracle.  

I want to savor these precious tender moments that are such a gift.  

After a long week I am so thankful that spring break is next week.  I have plans of sitting on my couch, watching morning shows, drinking coffee and getting a few things done around the house.  Really exciting right?  Sounds pretty wonderful to me! 
Hope you have a great weekend!

Random Wednesday

dress: forever 21   necklace: gift    cardigan: old navy   boots: dsw 

Thank you SO much for all your excitement, comments and congratulations when we announced we're having a girl! We really couldn't be more excited!

Despite my closed eyes I'm still sharing this picture. In honor of Dr. Suess' birthday my team dressed up as the "things" and even baby Vale got to participate.  I lost my shirt from last year, so I wore this instead.  I finished my first baby room project. After seeing this adorable print on pinterest I wanted to copy.  I used a canvas that I already had, drew the elephant and used the top of a spray can to make the dots.  I had to use the paintbrush to go over many missed spaces and to even out the circles.

These are the colors we're planning on using for the room. I can't wait to hang it and add two others to each side.  Now to decide what to put on them! 
Hope you're having a good week!

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A Surreal Moment

I'm not quite sure what happened, since I look way more pregnant in week 14.  I'm guessing it's a combination of how I'm standing, plus the fact that both of these were in the morning and I look at least twice as pregnant by the evening.

I had a very surreal moment in church this last week.  
There were so many times over the last two years when I would stand during worship and see pregnant woman and couples with babies and just long for that to be me.  There was this one woman who I remember seeing every week, and I just watched her belly grow and then her baby grow.  I would dream of the day when that would be Chris and I in church. 
I remember clearly a few weeks after our early miscarriage in August, we sang the song "Blessed be your name" which is one of my favorites.  But one that I hadn't truly taken to heart until that point.  One of the lines is: 
"You give and take away, You give and take away. My heart will choose to say.  Lord blessed be your name."  
I was pregnant with a baby I thought I would have and then I wasn't.  But I was working on, with everything in my heart, to still say "Blessed be your name."  I couldn't sing much of that song, as I was fighting the tears from streaming down.  
On Sunday we sang that same song.  And I fought back tears again.  But not out of pain, but of joy.  "Blessed be your name. When the suns shining down on me.  When the world's all as it should be. Blessed be your name."  
I looked down at my little belly, with my baby growing.  Our baby.  Here I was standing in church praising God and blessing his name for this miracle and time of joy in our life.  

And the fact that I get to sign that sweet letter your mom?
God is so good. Blessed be His name.