more waiting . . .

I found out some disappointing news on Friday.  My first round of fertility treatments did not end as planned and I have to start over and try again in a few weeks.    I'm sad and disappointed. Friday morning, before I found out, I was driving to the dr.'s office early before school and I was feeling frustrated with the whole situation - the time commitment and the emotional toll in particular.
  In the hopes of improving my attitude, I started thinking of the things that I am grateful for through this situation and how God has used this trial. Finding joy in times of trials sometimes takes some searching!  But I soon thought of many things, and I'm glad those we're all in my mind as I have needed to think of them often these last few days.

1. Our marriage - I'm reminded all the time throughout this year how lucky I am to be married to Chris.  He has been understanding, sympathetic and encouraging through all of this.  We've become closer and our marriage is stronger.  I know that this will make us better parents when we do have kids. 

2. Insurance - I can't imagine the burden I'd feel if we didn't have insurance.  My insurance through work is wonderful and I don't how we could do this, without it.   

3. My family & friends - I feel blessed to be surrounded by people who love me, pray for me and listen to me. Sometimes I feel like I am a broken record because for the last year I've been dealing with and struggling with the same thing.  I appreciate the constant reassurance that they always want to hear how I'm doing and how I feel.  

4. Patience - While this is something I'm definitely still learning, God is teaching me to wait patiently for His perfect timing.  I remember in high school my youth pastor's wife would always tell me not to pray for patience because God would surely teach it to me!  While I don't recall praying specifically for patience before all this, I think it was time that I started learning it.  

I made this painting awhile ago and look at it every morning in my bathroom.
It is a great reminder to be joyful and thankful for all the things God has given me.

I read this verse today and I love the comfort that comes with it.  

Psalm 61:2  From the ends of the earth, I cry to you for help when my heart is overwhelmed. 

Lead me to the towering rock of safety. 

My hear is overwhelmed, but I know God is good and has a perfect plan for us.  

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A Wish

I recently found the blog, Cup 'a Hot Chocolate and love the new link up that she started.  Bloggers share a wish that they have.   Her idea is that maybe we can help each other with our wishes by giving advice, assistance or just encouragement.  

I thought about things that I am wishing for right now.  I keep trying to think of a wish that maybe others could help me with, but the wishes of my heart right now can't be granted with advice, or direction.  My wish can only be given by God in His timing, which is something that I am learning.  

When I think of making a wish the first and strongest thing in my mind is to have a baby.  

A better word than wishing for me is trusting and waiting for God's perfect timing.   

Linking up my wish here. 

~Katie

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Patience

One of the biggest lessons I've been learning this year is patience.  In the past when you asked me to pick some characteristics that describe me I may have said patience as one of the top few.  I've realized this is so far from the truth! I think I thought because I work with kids all day I am patient (which I think I am - with 8 years old).  I am getting closer, but am far from being patient.  With little things - like getting a hanger off a clothing rack that is stuck at a store,  or getting boxes to fit under a bed.  But mostly with big things - like waiting for my husband to get a job that makes more money, or waiting for God's timing to get pregnant.  In the past my desires have been granted pretty quickly by God and this year things are not the same.  God's given us countless blessings, just not everything I imagined in my timing.  I trust that God is good and will give me the desires of my heart, BUT in His perfect timing.  So one of my resolutions for the new year is to continue to learn patience and trust in His timing.  

Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.

Psalm 27: 14  

Happy almost weekend!